Feeling no Pain.

It's strange how some people "Cringe" at the thought of going to the dentist. I Cringe at the thought of having a tooth ache! I had two teeth pulled today, hopefully I can get them all fixed very soon since I found an affordable dentist.

Seven shots! He shot me twice on each side, pulled the right one but the other one would not get dead enough for him to pull. I ended up getting seven shots before he could pull it. He said I had a rare nerve "thang". I forgot what he called it. Ha.ha. Right now Im feeling pretty good, Thanks to Loritab. Ha.ha.

Poor mom had to entertain Matthew for almost two hours. He was in one of his playing moods. He wanted to walk and be bounced and tickled or he would whine. She had to chance his diaper on the magazine table in the waiting room. Two hours later when I came out, there was a lady holding him. Ha.ha and it wasn't grandma Ruth! I thought that was funny too. I thought she had given him away but she said the lady offered to hold him.

He's asleep now. Still having those Myoclonic Jerks! I am at my wits end with those things. I am going to check into the Neuro Diet again. I have already emailed the lady and she emailed me back. We are going to start with one thing at a time changing his diet. When I first spoke to her, I was just overwhelmed with what to do first so she offered to help me. It's got to do with getting him on Organic foods, low sugar, no preservatives, etc. The organic foods are sometimes hard to find and when you do find them they are very expensive but I am going to do it even if I have to raise the money.

He had a runny nose and congestion but he's a lot better today. I usually keep him indoors but I decided the last two days to take him to the Indoor pool and I believe it helped him loosen up the crud and he's a lot better. I thought it may make him sicker but looks like it's helped him.

You should have seen him today. He showed off most of the day and was a little angel of course. The way he turns his head and struggles to seem my face and smiles, showing all his teeth just makes my heart melt..

He's so spoiled. I am happy about that because he shouldn't be able to show attachment of know voices with all his brain abnormalities but there is no doubt he knows me and a lot of other people.

I notice how sometimes my boys come in from school and they just walk by him and don't say anything to him. I have been telling them that they need to speak to him everytime they can so he can get more familiar with their voices. When the boys get in from school, I 'll say, OH NO they're home! Lets get out of here! And Matthew will just laugh. He loves to hear me scream at korey or threaten him when he doesn't do homework. Matthew laughs as if to say, Ha, ha, you are in trouble. It's really funny.

When papa John drives up, I'll say Papaw's home Matthew and he gets real excited and smiles.

The door at the indoor pool at the YMCA squeaks really loud when you open it. When he hears that squeaking door, he gets all excited because he know's he's going swimming and he immediately tries to get out of his chair and he squeels in the dressing room like a little girl and all the time he turning to the right with his eyes wide open trying to see me. Makes me want to cry just thinking about it.

He is such a sweet little boy. If God said I could go back in time and exchange him for another "normal" little boy I believe I would say no. If he said I could go back in time and have Matthew over again as a normal baby I would have to say, yes. But If I did I could have never learned what life was all about and how fulfilling it could be. Matthew doesn't seem to be suffering or in any pain, but If he was, I may look at it differently. He is normal to himself because he doesn't know how to be any other way. I think he is just wonderful. You know lots of kids with the same brain malformations can be screamers, hitters, very irratable, or unsociable, and some can't even smile or laugh. I couldn't imagine not ever seeing Matthew smile but I know if I had to his eyes can say a billion words.

I guess I better quit my braggin and go to bed.
Good Night